I know I’ve been absent a lot lately and I apologize. I love interacting with people online and, obviously, this is the main way I do it. Things have been crazy but, to be truthful, things are always a bit crazy here. I’ve been posting a bit on facebook. And I’ve been tweeting a bit. But I haven’t been writing posts. And I think there are a few reasons for that.
Probably the main thing is that I’ve been concentrating on getting through the first few weeks of school. There hasn’t been much cooking going on, and I’ve been tired. My RA has been in a minor flare and I’ve been without a full voice for about a week. I haven’t felt terrible, but it always takes energy away from me when I’m dealing with a flare whether minor or major.
I actually have 5 posts begun but none completed. And then it occurred to me that the Vegan MOFO (The Vegan Month of Food) starts Oct 1 and I have committed to about 5 posts a week. Wow. So I decided to bank posts to ensure I had enough since I am super excited about being a part of a community of bloggers all celebrating vegan food. Here are a few pictures to entice you with what I will be posting about in the month of October!
And now I need to admit something that makes me feel a little, well, childish. I haven’t written a post to wrap up the Vegan Lunchboxes for Adults Challenge because only one person wrote a post and I think, to some extent, I felt bad about it. I never thought it would generate a lot of posts, I write a microscopically tiny blog! But I guess I thought there would be 3 or 4 entries, not just one. NOW! Here’s the thing. That post has gotten the most traffic of any of my posts recently, so it is making people think about packing healthy lunches and that was my goal. Not generating a lot of traffic or anything. Deciding to host a blog carnival in the fall right after I started back to school may not have been the smartest thing I’ve ever done. I haven’t had the energy to devote to it that I would have had in the summer. But I’m one of those people who re-hash and re-hash things in their minds, thinking of how I should have done it differently; how I should have done it better.
I need, to use one of my favorite phrases, to put on my big girl panties and move on. I need to learn how to promote things better. I need to figure out how to attract more people to things I host. I need to write the durn blog post regardless. And I need to not let myself feel bad about this sort of thing. Particularly since one of my themes is taking the best care of me I can.
Maybe I need to refocus my priorities, remembering why it is I do this anyway which is to help me deal with the changes in my life.
I guess what I’ve learned is that I still have a lot to learn about blogging, about managing my RA, about taking care of myself, about balancing work and home, and apparently about food photography. (Though I could have told you that last one!) Summer is over so this blog is different than it was then. I need to work on understanding my limitations while exploring how to best communicate.
Yes, summer might be over but today I saw this beautiful butterfly on my deck.
Summer is over but there are still beautiful things to come. I need to be ready for them, no matter how they come. And I need to learn to define beautiful in different ways. If anyone thought more about packing a healthy lunch then I did what I wanted to do.
I look forward to Vegan MOFO and all the exciting food that October is going to bring. I hope you find beautiful in some way this fall.